What Was, What Is, What Could Have Been

by Adieu Caribou

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Donald Orr Following the release of their EP Hollow Joy in 2015, Andy Alvarez and company continue to provide fantastic lo-fi indie tunes that meet at an intersection of youth and sincerity, yet matures both in lyricism and musicianship since their last full-length release. One of my most anticipated albums of the year, this doesn't disappoint.

Faves: URIM, Pine, Tequila, Xoxoxo, Buried Luv, the whole thing! :^) Favorite track: Pine.
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This is the third Full-Length LP from Adieu Caribou

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released March 24, 2017

Thank you to: Premiere Academy of Performing arts, Indiana Laub, Interzone, Joe Eggers, Corvallis DIY, Mondo Moreno, Fear Dog, The Shifts, Dumb Luck, our friends and families for supporting us, and everyone who has come out to a show <3

All songs recorded and mixed by Christopher McFetridge between June 2016 and January 2017 in The Basement and The Dancehall
All songs performed by Adieu Caribou
Trumpet on tracks 1,4,5,7 and 8 were performed by Matthew Mischke
Album Art by Sean Swanson

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Track Name: You Are I Am
I’m so tired of myself
I wish that I was someone else
Maybe then you’ll notice me
When I am six feet underneath

But I’m not
What you want
And my thoughts
Will fuck you up

Days I’ll never spend with you
Inside my closed off blue bedroom
While you’re out cruising beneath the sun
With some guy that you think is the one

But he’s not
What you want
And his thoughts
Will fuck you up

Sometimes at night
I pretend you’re by my side
Constellations in your eyes
Remind me I’m alive

You are
I am
Everything
That went wrong

And you’re not
What you want
And your thoughts
Will fuck you up
Track Name: Blanket Cape
I could never let you go
With your hands around my throat
Say you need someone else
To save you from yourself

Call me at 3am
Just to say we were never meant
But that you once were the one
Who held me close beneath a glaring sun


Then you looked at me with your bloodshot eyes and yelled that you feel alone
Then I disappear to become my fear of always staying ghost

You were heaven sent
You're my medicine
So sweet and poisonous
I'll swallow you whole till I die

Now I can't speak to you
Without a can in my hand to soothe
All the feelings I locked up inside
And will keep there until I die

Remember when you dressed all in red
The same night that you wished me dead
With the lights shining bright in our eyes
We finally had an excuse to cry

Then you looked at me with your bloodshot eyes and yelled that you feel alone
Then I disappear to become my fear of always staying ghost

You were heaven sent
You're my medicine
So sweet and poisonous
Track Name: Blurred Photos
Days lost in a lover’s haze
Gone with each time I mention your name
You'll always be all of the good things to me
When you go I’ll know that even the good things can leave


You left our love in a photograph
Said our love won't last long but this time will last
Said when you feel sad don't reach for my hand
I'll be long gone with the southern wind
Don't forsake my name

I know we don't talk at all that much these days
But I still hope that you are doing ok
Erase my name from your walls and from your bed frame
Where I once laid as everything around me started to fade
You left our love in a photograph
Said our love won't last long but this time will last
Said when you feel sad don't reach for my hand
I'll be long gone with the southern wind
Don't forsake my name


And I can’t be what you need me to be
But my love is yours to keep
And I can’t be what you need me to be
But my love is yours to keep
And I will never be what you need
But my love is yours to keep
And I will never be what you need
But my love is yours to keep

Said you want someone
Addicted to your love
To consume your time
Paint themselves into your life
When things have changed
Does love remain?
Does love remain?
When I’m sinking down
Don’t let me drown
Though we don’t feel the same
Does love remain?
Does love remain?
Track Name: Holy Water
Holy water I’m drowning
Please wash away all of my sins
You're a saint but you don't pray for me
Anymore
Anymore

Cut me out of your lungs
Every breath draws the damage I’ve done
Love is cruel and you don’t sing for me
Anymore
Anymore

Please
Please
Let me stick around
Stick around
Please
Please
Let me stick around
Stick around
Stick around

Wait won't you stay
Don't let all our memories fade
You're the one I’ve always loved
You're the one I'll always love you
But go see the world
I know you’re no longer the girl
That I have always loved
And a memory is more than enough


In my dreams
You're here with me
Holding hands down by the sea
While I'm drowning

Burn everything I gave to you
Let dead flames consume
Till you forget me

Please
Please
Please let me be in your memories
In your dreams
And your memories
No more Crying

Please
Track Name: Only
Sixteen and your life was caving in
And I won't be the sins of your past
Now nineteen and you're starting over again
And I just want to make amends with you
’Cause you haunt my head every night while I lay in bed
And you think of me oh like I’m just like in another freak

When we were young
We had it all

Now you're the only girl I have ever loved
With diamonds in your hair feet dripping with blood
Now you’re in my dreams but you're still real to me
Now I all I ever do now is want to sleep and dream of you

Darling please kill me while I’m young
The older I become the more I feel numb
Write me let me know you’re doing well
And thoughts of me still only give you hell

Cause you haunt my head every night while I lay in bed
And you think of me oh like I’m just like in another freak

When we were young
We had it all

Now you're the only girl I have ever loved
With diamonds in your hair feet dripping with blood
Now you're next to me
And we’re crying
’Cause there'll never be another you and me
How can this be
I know I’m gonna die
Close my eyes to a starry sky
Kiss my cheek I’ll be alright
I’ll dream of you in another life
I know I’m gonna die
Close my eyes to a starry sky
Kiss my cheek I’ll be alright
I’ll dream of you in another life
Track Name: Pine
I once asked you to hang with me
For a cup of bad coffee
And we laughed and we laughed until the time did pass
And the sun sank into the sky
And as we said goodbye
The stars shined so bright in your eyes
And the moon came out as I started to shout
It's been awhile since I felt all right

Months carried on it had been so long
Since I lost track of time
You read books in my bed
And you met all my friends
And I met your future instead
And one day you looked so sad
You said lately life's been pretty bad
So I tried and I tried almost every summer night
To make you feel all right

Then as time moved on
I met a boy with your breathe in his lungs
He said with his bleeding heart
That he had loved you from the start
And so many people said
That they could make you happy instead
And I didn't mean any harm
When I left you alone with the stars
It's just you don't need another fucking with your beautiful heart

Years passed by now you seem happy inside
With the outcome of your life
You have someone who would fly to the sun
And get all the shit you need done
I still see you sometimes
I'm so glad that you're alive
And I'll remember summer nights when you laughing by my side
And the stars shined in your eyes

Then the minutes slowed
When I saw you talking on a telephone
I was buying a gift for a friend
In a bookstore that you worked in
I wish that I could say
All the reasons why I went away
And always be blue
For the girl with the bumblebee tattoo
Thanks for saving me from a summer alone
Track Name: Tequila
Took every tear for granted
She was crying he was laughing
But now he sits beneath the moon alone
Waiting for a girl that’s long gone
Mistook his plastic beads for pearls
He’s known for fooling every girl
But he’s a bad man in disguise
He uses flowers baby just like knives
But he has her locked in
Like the moon controls the waves

Let him him go
Baby please let him go
Darling please let him go
Baby please let him go

I remember the taste of death upon your lips
From every single empty kiss
And the stylish way you moved your hips
I don’t recall ever feeling like this
I watched the stars fall from the sky
Looking into your pale blue eyes
Walked you home at a drunken 2AM
But by tomorrow you won’t know who I am
And he has her locked in
Like the moon controls the waves

Let him him go
Baby please let him go
Darling please let him go
Baby please let him go

Buenas noches mi amor
Just know my heart is always yours
Buenas noches mi amor
Let me see you smile once more
Track Name: Xoxoxo
You're the circles around my eyes from the lack of sleep
You're the days that I dream about but still have yet to see
You're the bones breaking deep within his body built to sink
You are
Hold a hold a halo above my head as I lay upon the ground
Summer's spent in a flower bed in a field behind your house
But now your plants are dying and you're worried about your health
You are

But wait I can't see
Whatever happened to you and me
And tears stain your sheets
As you cry just to fall asleep


Said we’d never love again
And threw our hearts in that flower bed
But I still write you on your birthday
Sign it xoxoxo

Never certain about the things you locked up in the past
Always thought they would never end but the good things never last
Now you're all alone skipping stones and lying in the grass
You are
Found your favorite fable in someone who colors out the blue
Let's you smile on sunny days and lazy afternoons
I only hope that they see in you all the small funny things
You are

But wait I can't see
Whatever happened to you and me
And tears stain your sheets
As you cry just to fall asleep

Said we’d never love again
And threw our hearts in that flower bed
But I still write you on your birthday
Sign it xoxoxo

It will be all right
Just gotta give it time
It will be all right
Just gotta give it time
Track Name: Buried Luv
Found love in a cemetery
So I could let it get buried
I found love in a cemetery
So I could let it get buried

But in my dreams you are with me
But I'm awake and you’ll only forget me
When you're near I run from you and hide
Scared to face the changes in our lives
Loved you when we were young and insecure
Now we've grown but still feel the way love hurts
Darling you

Loved you back when we were younger
Now you're so beautiful
Loved you back when we were younger
But now you sit with love upon your throne

But in my dreams you are with me
But I'm awake and you’ll only forget me
When you're near I run from you and hide
Scared to face the changes in our lives
Loved you when we were young and insecure
Now we've grown but still feel the way love hurts
Darling you

I still call you but now you don’t pick up the phone
Buried in my bones are the feelings that we can’t let go
Track Name: Human
I am only human
And she's a heavenly girl
Bought artificial candy
To fill my empty world
Crying by my bedside
To the sound of rain
Just like the dead flowers in autumn
In time I too will bloom again
So go ahead and let me down now
Just like you always do
Too scared to see what I am now
And what I still mean to you
Cling to the arms of another
So that you feel loved
I only want to see you smiling
I hope that they're enough

Oh no time says I'll become a ghost
Haunting every thought you love the most
Summers spent hiding inside your room
Quickly time consumed
Everything too soon


I heard that you've been crying
Sorry about your loss
I wish that I could be there
Cause I too am lost
And if I get to see you
One more time before I die
Just wanted to tell you
I hope you know I tried

Oh no time says I'll become a ghost
Haunting every thought you love the most
Summers spent hiding inside your room
Slowly time consumed
Everything but you

I heard that you are happy
Lying beneath the sun
I hope that you are proud of
What I have become
Track Name: Scout
Somewhere deep inside your eyes
Is a girl I used to know
Back when I so young
And the time moved so slow
Now she’s hanging by a thread
With a noose around her neck
And I am hiding in my bed
As thoughts of her fill up my head
Fill up my head

Lately you're always on my mind
Like I'm back in 2009
But I cannot rewind the time
And It’d hurt too much to even try
Remember lying by the stream
But now it only ever feels like make believe
Cause we threw out those memories there nothing more than painful things
Hanging by a string
With my last breathe I will sing

In time time time
I promise I’ll be fine
So don't bear all the pain and wonder why
I left you all alone to cry
I know there were times that I didn't try
Fucked up we never said goodbye
Now we only try to rewind the time
To go back and say what we never could
Like love will petrify your heart like wood
All we've come to know
Is how to let go

And your names stuck in my mouth
Cause I can't say it out loud
It's been so long since you called me scout
This is me yelling my lungs out


Somewhere deep inside his eyes
Is a boy she used to know
Back when life was so sweet
And the time moved so slow
Now all he ever does his hide
‘Cause he can't face his stupid life
All he does to get by
Is try to wind back the time
Though we said goodbye
Walked away not feeling right
Track Name: Champ
Summer turns blue at first light’s thought of you
Winter painted red when you said that we were dead
I buried my regrets
In a garden by your house where you said you could no longer feel
And all you do is wilt as you try to fill everything your heat spilt.

Looking for someone that can do all the things I lacked
Like make you crack a smile yah I know it's been awhile
Since you've been happy
All the empty words from the boys that don't give two shits
About how you really feel and how it's hard to deal with all of this sadness
And all I had to say when you went away
Is that We are young and we are dumb
‘Cause we're in love with what we've lost
Can't leave the past behind
But we won't find
What we’re longing for
It's not there no more

Hallelujah champ
So glad your smiles back
I know we no longer speak
‘Cause Heavy words only make you
Sink

Hallelujah champ
So glad your smiles back
Oh how I used to sing
And you’d always dance with me

Do you remember
Back when we were young

Summer turns blue at first light’s thought of you